This week dragged on a bit too long for my liking. We are still trying to figure out the area changes, we lost a lot of members and a few investigaters. On top of that, one of the members of our family for baptism didn't come to church yesterday. It was really abnormal and we don't know why yet. We'll be dropping by today to see. I'm worried about them and the other less active members that live by them. We talked to Paulina, who got baptized in Cartagena and is kind of put out. She liked the members in her old ward better. Just hearing her talk about it made me really sad. I also heard some sad news about members from my area in Armenia. I just have felt a bit heavy from all the things that are going on.
Now, I hope you all don't start thinking the wrong thing. I'm happy and I've decided to stay that way. It's a blessing that I am able to say so. I am so grateful for the many things that God does for me. It's natural to feel sad or let down when other people choose to stray. But all I can do is keep loving them and serve them with more love. I guess I'm learning to love the people here, because I feel for them and with them.
I honestly don't know how to express how I'm feeling, maybe it's the deteriorated english or just the newness of these feelings. Perhaps ambivalent? I don't know really. Anyway, I'm healthy, don't worry about that. I found some orange juice and I have been loving that. Me and Elder Steadman found some Malt O' Meal cereal and that's been great too. I'll get the call stuff figured out with Mom.
Love you all,